Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Fairytales really don't exist, or do they?
Today was supposed to be an early celebration for our 1 year anniversary. One year ley! Wow. But somehow I just don't feel that elated, and I have no idea why.
Been talking to I.Lim quite alot these days. About yc and relationship problems. It's a nice feeling for us to be still such good friends, as compared to other couples who were once tgt and hardly speak a word to each other anymore. I am truly thankful for that. However, we may be friends, really good friends. But I still feel that it isn't right for us to talk too often? Your girlf might be generous and understanding, but no matter what she's still your girlf. And regardless of how much she says she doesn't mind, trust me, she does. Thanks for lending me your listening ear till 5plus in the morning. I believe we're still really great friends. But I don't think I should bug you with my problems anymore. It seemed okay before cuz you weren't attached, but now you are. I really do appreciate it when you said, "fz you can call me when you have any problems." Thanks, but I really don't think I can, or should anymore. Time should be spent with your gf, not me. You should be talking on the phone with her, not me. Because right now she's your gf, not me. I've lost that privillege long ago.
Yc yc yc yc. I really don't want us to end. I think I still love you, adn I don't want to make any decisions I might live to regret. Pls show me there's still hope for us. I promise I'll try on my part. As best as I can. I don't know if I'm prepared to lose you, and ultimately your family.
Been talking to I.Lim quite alot these days. About yc and relationship problems. It's a nice feeling for us to be still such good friends, as compared to other couples who were once tgt and hardly speak a word to each other anymore. I am truly thankful for that. However, we may be friends, really good friends. But I still feel that it isn't right for us to talk too often? Your girlf might be generous and understanding, but no matter what she's still your girlf. And regardless of how much she says she doesn't mind, trust me, she does. Thanks for lending me your listening ear till 5plus in the morning. I believe we're still really great friends. But I don't think I should bug you with my problems anymore. It seemed okay before cuz you weren't attached, but now you are. I really do appreciate it when you said, "fz you can call me when you have any problems." Thanks, but I really don't think I can, or should anymore. Time should be spent with your gf, not me. You should be talking on the phone with her, not me. Because right now she's your gf, not me. I've lost that privillege long ago.
Yc yc yc yc. I really don't want us to end. I think I still love you, adn I don't want to make any decisions I might live to regret. Pls show me there's still hope for us. I promise I'll try on my part. As best as I can. I don't know if I'm prepared to lose you, and ultimately your family.
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Recommendation of the day(night)
I think I've fallen in love with Luther Vandross, especially his song "I'd Rather".
His voice is awesome and he's charismatic to the max. Okay I am in love with him.
His voice is awesome and he's charismatic to the max. Okay I am in love with him.
Monday, November 10, 2008
I guess this is the end.
Hello.
I'm feeling weird now, not sure how exactly I should be feeling.
I. Lim's got a new girl. I feel happy for him and of course, they have my blessings. Why then, do I have this tinge of sourness in my heart? Sigh. I know I should be happy for him, his girl is pretty and sweet and I want them to be happy tgt, if possible to live happily ever after. But somehow I feel lost. Those memories are rushing back all at once and I miss them. Seeing him so proud of their pictures and her as his girl, I can't help but feel a little sadness. I realize I kinda miss him. As a friend, or maybe a little more? Probably a really really good friend I once had.
I wonder if he remembers the stuff he once said to me even after I left, that I'd be his one and only in his life and he'll love no one else. He probably forgot about it after the little accident he had. And no, I can't expect him to fulfil those promises. That's too selfish. Maybe I should be happy he still remembers me. Maybe not what we've went through, but probably as a friend. That's good enough(I guess).
Ivan please please do not return to your old ways. If you love her, you musn't let her shed a tear. I hope you'll treasure her, since you said she's the love of your life. Do all you can for her and give her the happiness no one else can give.
I guess the jar of hearts will be put behind, kept in past memories. Take care, my dear friend.
I'll cheirsh what I have now, and so will you.
like it says, "once upon a time.."
I'm feeling weird now, not sure how exactly I should be feeling.
I. Lim's got a new girl. I feel happy for him and of course, they have my blessings. Why then, do I have this tinge of sourness in my heart? Sigh. I know I should be happy for him, his girl is pretty and sweet and I want them to be happy tgt, if possible to live happily ever after. But somehow I feel lost. Those memories are rushing back all at once and I miss them. Seeing him so proud of their pictures and her as his girl, I can't help but feel a little sadness. I realize I kinda miss him. As a friend, or maybe a little more? Probably a really really good friend I once had.
I wonder if he remembers the stuff he once said to me even after I left, that I'd be his one and only in his life and he'll love no one else. He probably forgot about it after the little accident he had. And no, I can't expect him to fulfil those promises. That's too selfish. Maybe I should be happy he still remembers me. Maybe not what we've went through, but probably as a friend. That's good enough(I guess).
Ivan please please do not return to your old ways. If you love her, you musn't let her shed a tear. I hope you'll treasure her, since you said she's the love of your life. Do all you can for her and give her the happiness no one else can give.
I guess the jar of hearts will be put behind, kept in past memories. Take care, my dear friend.
I'll cheirsh what I have now, and so will you.
like it says, "once upon a time.."
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Friends are the best thing that ever happened to me
Happy Birthday A. Lee!
Today was an awesome day at town. I know we all had fun! :) Though we hardly even know each other back in cchms, I'm still glad we're kinda in the same clique and we get along? Haha I know what you did back in cchms, but I'll forget it. Afterall the present is more important that the past isn't it. Hope you had a smashing birthday celebration, and I was impressed with how sporting you were and gave in to everything we made you go through. You've got guts. Haha that's how an 18 year old should be k. Stay happy :)
"I like A.Lee because he's so cute.." Aww, man.
Our dear Saints' Idol.
(pictures another day cuz it's not done being uploaded!)
Today was an awesome day at town. I know we all had fun! :) Though we hardly even know each other back in cchms, I'm still glad we're kinda in the same clique and we get along? Haha I know what you did back in cchms, but I'll forget it. Afterall the present is more important that the past isn't it. Hope you had a smashing birthday celebration, and I was impressed with how sporting you were and gave in to everything we made you go through. You've got guts. Haha that's how an 18 year old should be k. Stay happy :)
"I like A.Lee because he's so cute.." Aww, man.
Our dear Saints' Idol.
(pictures another day cuz it's not done being uploaded!)
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Romeo, Save Me
Sorry long time no blog, I know. Been really really busy with the online boutique. zzz.
Saturday's A's birthday celebration:)
But guess what, when I told yc about it, his reply was "so you're not meeting me?" Oh please, can't you for once say sth like "Okay go ahead, hope you have fun :)" Wouldn't that have been a whole lot better? You ought to learn, my dear. To be independent. I'm your girlfriend, not your nanny. Came online, and you were all sad and down. Said you were stressed and tired.. And lonely(I seriously hope you weren't hinting abt satucrday). Told you to rest, asked you what happened. Waited for so long and all you could say was "dunno". I won't know what to do like this, right?
I wish you weren't so dependent. I wish you could grow up and really, be a man. One who can support himself, not always having to rely on me, be it emotionally or whatever. I once told you thta you cant rely on me forever and what you said, I didn't have much to counter. "Why, but you'll always be with me what right. So I can always rely on you." Speechless, yes.
I really like all my friends so much better. You know, the more you show reluctance and dejection whenever I hang out with them, the more I feel that I should go out with them and not let you restrict me. Since you claim you know me very well, shouldn't you know I'm not the compliant kind by now. How about the days I woke up early just to send you off to exams, when I waited for you to finish your exam just to go home with you. Isn't that time spent tgt. And youknow, the time we spend tgt is 21854846329 times more than other couples. Overdose isn't it. In case you didn't know, overdose kills, no matter of what.
p/s. Sorry for the neglect for like, 20 days dear diary. =/
Saturday's A's birthday celebration:)
But guess what, when I told yc about it, his reply was "so you're not meeting me?" Oh please, can't you for once say sth like "Okay go ahead, hope you have fun :)" Wouldn't that have been a whole lot better? You ought to learn, my dear. To be independent. I'm your girlfriend, not your nanny. Came online, and you were all sad and down. Said you were stressed and tired.. And lonely(I seriously hope you weren't hinting abt satucrday). Told you to rest, asked you what happened. Waited for so long and all you could say was "dunno". I won't know what to do like this, right?
I wish you weren't so dependent. I wish you could grow up and really, be a man. One who can support himself, not always having to rely on me, be it emotionally or whatever. I once told you thta you cant rely on me forever and what you said, I didn't have much to counter. "Why, but you'll always be with me what right. So I can always rely on you." Speechless, yes.
I really like all my friends so much better. You know, the more you show reluctance and dejection whenever I hang out with them, the more I feel that I should go out with them and not let you restrict me. Since you claim you know me very well, shouldn't you know I'm not the compliant kind by now. How about the days I woke up early just to send you off to exams, when I waited for you to finish your exam just to go home with you. Isn't that time spent tgt. And youknow, the time we spend tgt is 21854846329 times more than other couples. Overdose isn't it. In case you didn't know, overdose kills, no matter of what.
p/s. Sorry for the neglect for like, 20 days dear diary. =/
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