I finally finally got to meet up with you!! ^^

Hi E this post is dedicated to you.

I swear I had fun the whole of today and seeing you again really made my day. Haha you're still the same cheery, bubbly and pretty you. Glad we were able to take some(okay maybe more than just some) snapshots for the memories today. Can't wait to see you again, but I wonder when will the next time be.....

And to the rest of the ppl who were at the bbq today, thanks for everything you guys made it fun. Unfortunately I was busy coughing my guts out I couldn't eat much. Thanks I(C) for bringing me food and drinks. Haha I know you treat me well la! My dear sis. :)

Tired, and still coughing. Better go to bed now. Later I cough my lungs out. ZZZ, Nights.

Some Random Pictures:

okay i look like some pig here..

unglam shot(thanks to E) with sis.

:)

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Maybe that's the way you feel

Today's been a generally good day other than yc bringing up tmr's bbq and stuff. Did a little shopping and caught "Painted Face" or sth like that. His choice. He just loves chinese films like that. Well anyway it was an alright movie. Even though at one time of the day, he said we should sit and or a talk. Again.

I'm sorry but you actually said you expect to be more important than my friends? Kinda sucks when I heard it. You made me speechless, just like that.

Are you for real?

When you say you understand, do you mean what you say? Then why is it that you agreed to give me time off to study and on the other hand keep saying things like "hey we haven't caught a movie in a long time," and "when i see my friends with their girlf i feel so empty cuz you're not here." Perhaps I read too much into things. To you these messages might show that you care and miss me. But to me, it's making me feel bad and guilty and sorry. I know I've been neglecting you but why won't you take the chance to chill, just hang out with your friends? I know I wouldn't mind that.

Tonight you tell me that I've neglected you, I admit and I'm sorry about that. But exams. Promotional exams. Didn't you say you would understand? So even though I made the effort to go all the way down to your house and skip a day of studying to surprise you on your birthday and on our 10th month anniversary, and sent you a silly postcard to show that I still care and remember you, all those didn't count? They didn't show that I care? Then I really don't know what counts. Did it matter how I felt deep down inside me when you said all these? You say you don't expect anything. If that's the case, why weren't those sufficient?

You say for people your age, girlfs are your everything. W/o them you don't wanna hang out with your friends cuz they brought theirs. W/o them you won't even turn up for gatherings/ Not even for your friend's birthday. I really seriously honestly don't see the logic in that. But fine, cuz I can never outtalk you anyway. I wish you'd understand, ppl my age, friends do matter alot and are really important to us. Whenever you ask questions like, "how important am I to you" and "am I of the first placing in your heart?" I really don't know what to say. You even go to the extent of asking "are your friends more important than me?" I think that's going overboard. Although I love you, I still want my own personal life, thank you. My world doesn't only revolve around you.

I'm sorry I know what I said sounded terribly mean. It might be a fit of anger, a release of my emotions. But somehow I mean it. Now you know why I need to have a private blog? Sorry, I still do love you.

It's time to relax, finally!

Whooooo promos are over and it'a huge relief, for me and for everyone else. Though I didn't sit for my final paper today(which was geography), I'm still quite happy cuz my common test and MSA results will be used. And I think and hope it'll be better this way than if I sat for today's paper. Haha. =X

Anyway thanks Pris calling me last night. Don't worry I wasn't crying. It was the stupid blocked nose. Anyhow, you cheered me up and encouraged me, thanks dear. Hope you're busy to your neck with work and friends. No more emo-ing okay!! Call me, anytime. :)

Slacking day today. Went to see a doctor and came back home. Guess I'll be staying at home, still tmr. Date with yc! :) Anyway I didn't miss much today since I heard the crazy guys only went out for lunch and then headed home. Quite a mild celebration for end of promos? Lol i was kinda expecting much more from them. Well I gues everyone's tired so I hope we can all rest well and recover from all the exam stress. And yc's mum is an angel. She has been texing me all those encouraging messages not to give myself so much stress and all that. Haha she's ultra lovable. I won't mind having her as my mum. XD

Econs & Lit, done and over with.

Finally two more papers down. I thought Econs was quite okay cuz I wrote double of what I did for CTs. Hope my marks double like proportionately. Haha, fat hope I know. Well what's done is done. All the best to myself and everyone else for Maths tmr. :)

My dad's going to India on the 2nd of next month. Yes the day before my birthday. I know he's going there to seek some "medical help" (according to him) for his aches and coughs and whatever other ailments. I hope it really helps him and he'll return all safe and healthy. Kinda disappointed. Not sure if he's forgotten about my birthday. But well I admit my heart turned a little sour when he told me when he was leaving. Didn't say anything though. Not planning to spoil his plans. My family's falling apart, seriously. The day we can go back to the happy family we were before will be my happiest day. Somehow I feel it's gonna not gonna be a fruitful wait.

Literature & Econs tmr, I'm so screwed.

Catherine please study and stop stoning!!!! zzz.

It'll take a miracle for me to be able to attempt my papers tmr. I seriously haven't touched my Othello text, not to talk about the unseen poem section. And my Economics is.. gg. I hope all that I've done during tuition helps. I hope. Otherwise I'm a goner.

Anyway, saw E's MSN pm. I think it's kinda cool.
"Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end."

Well good luck to me for the whole of this promos. I'll be relieved when it's over. The worrying can come back when marking's over. =/

First Day of Promos

Don't know if I should be happy or not. GP's done and over with, but then it also means the other papers are coming. And I totally haven't touched Geography. Globalization = !@#$&*. sigh.

And Dad hasn't been feeling well. I'm worried, but I don't know what to do. I can feel myself drifting away from him. I still can't believe what I saw. I hope he'll recover from his illness soon. I don't hate him enough to want him dead. Please get well soon, Dad.

Exams really suck. Thanks to my adorable friends who texted me last night. One of the texts went like this. "We're so gonna own promos:)" lol. I love you guys, all of you. I swear I'm gonna tear again when the time comes for B to leave. =(

Totally disgusting.

I despise you for what I saw, for what I never believed to be true. I hate you.

Happy 10 months :)

It's been 10 months(and 1 day) since we got together. Seems like quite a long time huh. But I know we still have a long way to go. I love you baby. :)

Self Revision Day

Overslept, again. if not for C's phone call I wouldn't even realise that I overslept. Must've been cuz I overestimated my own capabilities and studied till 3am this morning. Shitzx.

Anyway since I was late, I might as well just stay home to study. And I'm glad my dad finally went out. I can't stand how inconsiderate he can be, talking so loudly over the phone when I'm studying. Yet he has the cheek to always complain I don't study. Thanks dad, but how can I study when you're always talking like no one can hear you. Do you know you're always contradicting yourself, too? You always say you don't see me studying. Fine, so I studied at home last night. And you told me not to study? Yes yes I know it's late and all, but it's my prime time to study. You should try understanding this, dad. Cuz it's been like this with me since years ago. have you been noticing?

Mum & Dad's still not talking. I don't know myself if I want them divorced or just remain the way they are. At least I still see them everyday. What if they go their separate ways? I won't know who to follow.

Love's Labour's Lost

"Zounds! Zounds!" was kinda all I could remember from the 2h15min play. Sorry most reverend Signior Shakespeare. Lol.

Okay the play wasn't exactly typical boring literature. It was a comedy. My favourite character was Don Adriano De Armado cuz his words were all heavily Spanish accented. Lol and the thing is, he could exclaim "Oh!" in an ultra high pitched tone I thought was really gay.

Nice play, nice day. :)

p/s. dear pris please be okay. Get rid of all the bad thoughts cuz they ain't true, girl. Believe in yourself, and be strong. I know you can :)

Spoilt surprise, but happy still :)

Happy Birthday darling. Today's your actual big day. :)

Though your maid gave me away, I'm sure you originally thought I wasn't going over. Lol you were grinning from ear to ear. Silly boy. Happy Birthday I hope you love your new boxers :B

So many birthdays this month!!

Firstly, Happy Birthday to N I(C) H P J S T D K I(L) E! Haha soooo many birthdays. Like, ELEVEN of 'em! whoo cool sia. ;) Well I hope each and every one of my dear friends enjoyed their birthdays and are all extremely happy. :D
Plus my special one, whose birthday falls on the 12th. Happy Birthday to you too. <3 color="#000000">at Aston's@The Cathay. Had lunch together, and walked around for awhile before going home. Mug mug mug. =/ I woke up quite happy today. But didn't end the day quite as happy. Sigh. Why can't A and T just get along!!!! It's getting kinda annoying, seriously. They both say they won't mind if we talk to the other. T means what he says, thank goodness. But A, she's obviously pissed when I talked to T. Zzz I hope they'll grow up. Like really mature. Yes, A's my friend, but so is T. I won't turn my back on either one of you. I just hope that A, you'll understand and at least give in a little? When T said bye, he didn't leave you out. Though you rolled your eyes at him in return and put on a really black face. Lighten up, will y'all? At least think about the kind of awkward atmosphere you create for your other friends. And A, I was totally hurt and taken aback when you just swept my hand off your shoulder. No thanks for that, it felt really sucky.

Drrooowsyy day...

I intended to study out today at Macs@pp after school but seems like I failed. Was ultra drowsy after taking the medicine and I was half sleeping half reading don't-know-what. zzz.

Okay since it isn't fated that I study today, I'll study tmr. Tmr I swear I'm NOT gonna take the medicine again unless the annoying headache decides to come back. It's fated that I go to sleep today. And I'll do just that. With pleasure.

Buh-bye it's bed-time. Yawn.

Just bear with this for awhile..

I'm sorry. I know this is some shitty decision. Selfish and inconsiderate. But I really have to. I know I've told you before, academics takes priority. I don't want this to happen either, but you can never understand what I mean when I say I need time and space for myself. You always agree, but in the end you make me feel bad cuz I can't spend time with you having fun like we did before. I really need to buck up cuz I've been way too slacked during the past few months.

Please please please. It's gonna be for just two weeks. I promise I'll return by your side as soon as my exams end. Sorry, don't hate me..

Happy Birthday My Love

Happy Birthday(in advance) my sweet boy :)

Though my presents to you weren't lavish and grand and branded, I hope you still like them. Thanks for your company today, cuz I totally enjoyed it. Dinner was awesome.. Well, actually I think being anywhere is awesome, as long as I have you by my side. I Love You, and I want you to always be happy.

Sweet dreams darling. <3

Weird Weird Day

Guess what. I didn't go for Lit again!!! =X
This time I didn't over sleep I swear. I woke up, but didn't feel like going. I decided that since I was so so tired, going wouldn't help. I might as well sleep in longer and study later. Well I thought that was a wise choice, heh. =)

Went to Macs@PP to study and things were going great at first. Managed to finish my Econs notes on Cost Of Productions. Happy like nothing :D

Then came along some random 20++ year old guy. Settled down at the table in front of me, set up his laptop and did his own stuff. After a while, he kept turning back. I thought he was looking at the mirror behind me or looking around for some power point for his laptop since I was at the corner seat. After which, he randomly turned around and apologised. Like, huh? O.o I couldn't hear what he was saying so I took down my earphones. This was what he said, "Um, Sorry." I think I gave him a "For What" face and he started explaining, saying that he was talking very loudly on his cell and thought he disturbed me. Lol. The thing was, I didn't even know if he was talking on his cell cuz One, I didn't look up at him and Two, I didn't hear him cuz my music was blasting. So I told him it was fine cuz I couldn't hear him anyway. Okay, settled. Then he asked me to look after his laptop for him cuz he wanted to go.. um, dont know where la, couldn't really hear him(other earpiece still blasting). So I just said yeah sure no problem la just go I'll take care. Before he left, he asked if he could get a drink for me. Okay, grateful guy wanting to thank me I thought. But I said no anyway. And guess what. He came back awhile later. Yes, with drinks. -.- He put one cup in front of me and started smiling. I gave him a scrunched up face and said "I thought I said I didn't want" then he went, "But I bought alr, I can't finish both by myself." Yeah sure, that's cuz you weren't supposed to get two cups. It's kinda funny and I just said, "slowly drink lor." HAHA. Weird Guy. I accepted the drink at last, but then.. hefoil my plan la. I wanted to get a meal. Then now I got drink buy ala carte things more expensive. So I ended up skipping lunch. Not a bad thing also la. Lol so I think I should thank him.

He left me alone to my studying for awhile, and turned back yet again. Wth. However this time he turned around to say bye. Haha, happy sia. Finally got some peace and quiet. BUT before he left, he said "Let's keep in touch" with a huge huge grin. Maybe like =B. Mine was =/. He asked for MSN and number. I wrote down my MSN (he even provided the paper-.-) and returned it to him. Guess what, this line came and totally stunned me, "urm, number also please." Wlao. Cannot get the message ah. !!!!! Fine, I stupidly gave it to him too. Don't know wth I was thinking. I thikn I gave him a wrong impression by giving him those details. He took another step, this time asking if I had plans tonight. I thought my response came a little too instantly. =X I went "Yes yes I have!! I'm going to my boyf's house for dinner!"Lol. He looked quite sheepish la but then he finally left. Whew. Weird Guy Of The Day.

Otherwise today's been good. Saw dear dear E who was as aunty-ish and clumsy as ever, almost knocking the people around with her bag and her animated way of speech was amusing. No doubt my bestie sia. Haha keep it up. :)

Yes, finally!

Good News Of The Day - Catherine officially started studying today :D
keep it up keep it up and carry on keeping it up. haha.

Bad News Of The Day - There is Lit lesson tmr. 3 hours again. Plus, I haven't done my assignment cuz E hasn't sent it to me. Not that I mind :)

I know it's kinda late, but Happy Birthday(:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, W!! :D

W's an awesome friend/classmate to have. He cracks you up, and springs surprises by actually doing his assignments sometimes. 10 of us went to W's house at about 10 in the morning to give him a surprise. He opened the door for B to enter first, and then we all appeared and sang hima Birthday Song, presenting him his tiny little cake. His stunned and just-woke-up face was so adorable we couldn't help laughing. His presents consisted of Wilson tennis balls, a Pierre Cardin wallet from all of us and some puzzle treasure chest that he wouldn't have been able to solve so Bird did for him. He was super happy :)

So we went into his house and settled down while he went to change. For a guy, he takes ages to get changed. 20 minutes!!! We saw him walk out of his room, walk into another room, then into a third room. Don't know what he doing sia. So busy. The funny part was that we didn't plan to go out, but just to stay at his house an chill but seeing that he had changed into jeans and a shirt and put on his contacts, we decided to go out for lunch. Lol. Oh yeah sth important. Thanks to W, we all ended up ultra sweaty. He said let's walk to Kallang KFC cuz it's only 10 - 15 minutes walk. Please, we walked for about half an hour in the hot sun!! -.-

W you better better remember us bunch of awesome friends k :p

10% productive day =/

Though it's such a pity I missed my lit lesson today, I met up with some friends to study. Or do some work. Have to complete my work before I can even think of studying.

Not very productive cuz I met D and friends at the airport at 12pm++ but we only started studying at around 5. Kinda screwed. That's cuz we went all the way to Taka for Seoul Garden until 4pm++ before we finally made our way down to the Esplanade Library to proper study. On the bright side, I got a Seoul Garden treat from D. He simply refused to let me pay. Thanks!! :D Didn't spend a single cent the whole day. So proud of myself. Haha. Had fun at lunch even though the company was a little bit.. embarrassing. Imagine having lunch at an ultra crowded place with a bunch of rowdy loudhailers. One of D's friend, B was a total joke. Lol. Everything he did was hilarious. We laughed through lunch about the stupid things he said and did. And after lunch, they just had to pour their water and whatever liquid they found onto the sizzling hot pan. For the wow smokey effect. -.- Boys will always be boys I guess. Just had to bury my face then.

Well I'm just glad that D & I can still be good friends and hang out like this after what happened last year. Thanks for today, D. (:

s-l-a-c-k-e-d.

Oops. Woke up late, didn't go to school = NO OTHELLO! Yay :D
Going out to study though. Must have some discipline. Otherwise I'd be stuck in front of the com for hours. Like now.

Okay bye going to study. Airport!!! :D