Happy Birthday, Dad.

Woke up late today and rushed home for dinner with my dad. Felt quite bad about it, but I could see he was happy to see me back :)

Had dinner, only my dad and me. Then while he was watching some show on tv I brought out his small cake and sang him a birthday song. I must say I felt really glad when I saw him smile. Been ages since he last did that. Or maybe it's just been a long time since he smiled at home.

Felt quite bad for my dad though. I was the only one in the family who celebrated his birthday. And I think it's pathetic, much less how disppointed and neglected he must be feeling deep inside. Asked bro if he wanted to give my dad the cake tgt, and he said no. He said he just pretend he doesn't remember and told me to bring out the cake only after he's back in his room. I know, what the hell right. Sigh. And my mum's not even home. I don't know what's going on in my family. No one seems to be bothered about anything anymore.

Yc text me tonight, he asked if I could accompany him to shop for clothes tmr. =/
Turned him down cuz I have econs tuition. But I'm not sure if I'd have agreed if it wasn't for tuition. Maybe not. The things he say, I don't know how I can respond properly. He said he maybe one day he'll make me fall for him again. :O I replied No let's just be friends cuz I seriously think it's much better this way. :x

Finally, a little sigh of relief.

Today was the last H2 paper and gosh was it bad. But heck, all that matters is that it's over now. Finally!!! :D

Well I have nothing much to blog about seriously. Oh yeah, yc's mum told me to drop by on cny! :O I guess I will, I really miss them so much. And Pris SXY you'll better keep your word and go too!! But I swear, the minute things turn awkward I'm so gonna leave. Say I have another house to visit or sth. Feeling kinda jittery inside. Well then again, maybe it'll all turn out good. After all they've been awesome and deep down inside me I know somehow, I still treat them like family. So coincidentally, yc text me tonight to ask how I've been doing. Said he just came out of hospital. =/ Sometimes I really wish he'd be stronger cuz I think most of his illnesses and weakness come from within him. His lack of spirit and faith in himself. Be strong, yc. Even though we're just friends now, know that I still care alright. So quit saying no one cares, silly.

Fat Fat Fat Fat Fat. Need to lose weight eh seriously. Zzz no one should tempt me with chocolates anymore k. At least not for now. =/

I think I love the way things are now :)

Had pe today and gosh it was tiring!~
Happy I managed to run 1.2km w/o stopping, YAY! :D
Sprinted across the width of the field 5x, then did 30 crunches, 30(or 40 can't rmb) squats, 15 push-ups, and ended up dead tired. :) :)

Anyway, MSA's been really dreadful. Studied, or rather tried to study, but the outcome for every paper seems to be the same. Maybe an additionall few marks cuz I tried to study, heh. What's been done: Econs, Maths, Human Geog. They all have one thing in common - they managed to stump me. =/ What's gonna be done: Gp, Physical Geog, Lit. I don't know how these are gonna turn out. I think I should start studying for Physical Geog soon. But I always just think and end up not doing it so this time I really must! :) Hopefully hopefully hopefully I will.

Other than MSA and lousy training standards =/ , life's been great :) The people. the free time I have on my hands. The awesome friends.

Okay I think I'd better turn in soon. Sleeping at 5 yesterday morning made me kinda tired. Haha good night world. <3

Muscle Ache Day

I'm impressed with how much I actually exercised today!!! :D
(though not alot, haha.)

Went for training, did a little sprinting(yes really a little only) and went for a run at Simei ITE. The jog/run there almost killed me alr, really, but I'm glad I decided to tag along! Felt so refreshed and happy after running. Never did so in a long long long time. So... :B Well then again, maybe it was the company. Hehe. But hell, I'm definitely getting muscle aches tmr. Going out with chonglik tmr, he'll have to bear with me and walk super slow otherwise I'll just sit down and not move. Haha.

Life has been treating me well recently, and I can really say I'm happy now. Until school reopens. Can't wait to see my friends and hang out everyday again like we used to, but I'm seriously dreading the rumoured more than 8 exams we're gonna have. Teachers telling us it's gonna be hell for us didn't help much. Gotta start studying soon soon soon soon soon. Like tmr before going out. Okay I will(more like I must). Maths Day!!!

Sigh. But I don't like Maths.

I guess I really believe in Fate

The past week has been good. Spent with friends who never fail to lift my spirits, and one recently met guy who's been there like a guardian angel. :)

He's someone who's always there when I'm down, someone who gives constructive advice and comments about issues, someone whom I feel is matured and is able to give me a sense of security. I guess I like how he's so motivated to achieve his goals in life, and I'm truly impressed. Quite the opposite of yc, I'd say. And NO, defintely not a substitue / fall-back person after yc. Someone I really appreciate.

But somehow, I feel it isn't morally right to be feeling this way. I mean, it's only been 11 days after the break up!!! :( Then again, it's chance. Or fate. I feel different around Mr. D, so much more at ease, no pretence, no tension. Also, another huge issue is his age - mine plus TEN. Yes, woah I know. Not exactly an issue that bothers me, but rather my parents(if they ever find out, that is)? XY says age doesn't matter, and him and others are really supportive cuz they find Mr. D really nice. Well maybe it'll be a good move? Heh, we'll see how it all turns out ultimately. :)

Met up with Pris today, and didn't regret it one bit. Catched Bedtime Stories and yeah we loved it. Adam Sandler's really good, man. Gotta give it to him ;) Chatted about how our lives are right now, and I guess we're both pretty glad with the way things are at the moment? Let's be thankful k. Love you babe, pls tc!

The Breakup

Anyway I realised I didn't mention this in any posts but..... it's over between yc and me. Our relationship ended the day before Xmas Eve, all for the better.

And if he matures we can still be friends otherwise I guess that's the way he wants it to be. Take care yc.

new year, new beginning

2008's been an eventful year, full of ups and downs and many things else. I'm thankful for the great memories, and also for the not so great ones cuz I know there were lessons learnt from them. All in all I guess I can say, I've matured? Okay maybe not, I don't know.

I've been feeling happy recently, thanks to my friends and the special people around me :) Been feeling a little guilty, not being very sad over the breakup and instead getting over it really quickly. Doesn't seem right, but I guess that further shows that it wasn't going to work out if we stayed on. Been able to hang out freely with friends as often as I like and it feels awesome. Thanks for being there for me too guys you people are the best, seriously. :)

All the best to everyone out there this 2009, I hope everthing's gonna turn out well especially for poor us taking our A's. Let's do this k, I know we can. We're gonna pump our fighting spirits high, oh yeah.