The swine's got me! kidding.

Dear diary,
it's been ages since i last updated this space. Been really busy and this time it's true. "Lazy" does not exist in my life now. At least, it CANNOT cuz otherwise i'd be doomed. '

Running a mild fever today, kinda glad cuz it gives me the chance to stay home and let my hair down for these few precious hours before hectic school life attempts to kill me again tmr.

Today, I found out things about my own family which I never knew. My dad complains that no one at home cares about him. But according to my brother he has no right to complain cuz when my brother was young, he fell sick in the middle of the night and went to wake my dad. Shockingly, all my dad did was to send him back to his room to sleep. :O
i never knew sth like that ever happened.. dad, if this is true you're really at fault and this could be why your dear son holds the hatred in his heart so many years after the incident. i guess nothing much can really heal the hurt you've caused to your son who was then young and innocent, and looked up to you. Now if you ever asked me what you've done to deserve this, i'd disagree if you said it was a sin from your past life. because it is one commited in your present life, a wound in your son's heart that can probably never heal. It may seem like a trivial event to you, but you know, kids remember these for life. It's too late to make up for anything now, I hope if there is ever an afterlife, you'll learn from this mistake, and try your best to treat the people you love with much more genuine care. i still love you dad. pls dont let me down.