maybe i'm invisible?

Hate it that whenever I blog it seems to be about events like this. Where has the joy in my life escaped to? Whatever it is, I hope it returns really soon. I need you k pls.

I haven't got a clue what's wrong with Mum. Something horrible is transforming her into someone so cold, so heartless, so much that I barely know her anymore. When you catch her in a good mood, you must be in the best of luck. Otherwise you're a goner. Making her repeat her answer is like a taxing chore to her, and she'll express that irritation really explicitly with an annoyed snap which I feel is totally uncalled for. If she was in my shoes, she'd probably have given me a bad scolding or worse, a slap.

Just minutes ago, she came yelling at my dad cuz he wasn't clear why my phone bill was so high this month. She shoved the bill at him and insisted she wasn't cheating him of any money. Like, wth Mum, please! Whoever said you were cheating anyone? Why do you have to get so defensive and skeptical. Is all this nonsense even necessary?

And last night, when I was so damn worried about the tube going down through my dad's nose, she was so heartless and totally counldn't be bothered. When I asked her what happened? I hated her for her reply. She said, "how would I know? I didn't do anything to him hor." Foor goodness sake, no one's against you so stop being so bloody defensive. And no matter how much you hate him, he is your husband, the father of your kids. How is it possible for you to be so cruel and unfeeling?

I don't know who lies beside me in bed every night anymore. It used to be my mum - my kind, caring, fun-loving and compassionate mum. Whatever's possessed her now, you're a bitch. Get out of her and grant our family some peace.